Friday, January 16, 2009

More Tender Mercies

Monday night Paul was really confused and making unusual requests. He kept pulling the sheet from the bed and asking me to tape his legs together with it. When I asked why, he said, "For evidence." It had been a long, tiring day and in my exasperation I said, "I don't know how much more of this I can handle." Well, Paul was listening, and in a rare moment of clarity said, "Why don't you lay down here on the bed and get warm." He moved over as best he could, put his arm around me and true to character, as ever, he comforted me.

I feel like I need to explain a little about my birthday gift and this one. When I said it was "my Paul," that wasn't quite accurate. In reality, it was more like my Paul, celestialized. Kind of gives me something to look forward to...

He sleeps most of the time now. He doesn't respond to much of anything or anyone. He appears to be getting closer to leaving. I am so grateful for the decision we made to bring him home, it was the right one; and for this opportunity to serve the wonderful man who is my best friend and husband.

Many of you have asked what you can do to help our family. At this point, there really isn't anything we need: our fridge, freezer and pantry are bursting at the seams, and we are doing well, emotionally. So just continue to pray. I'm sure there will be a time in the days and weeks to come, when we will need your help and support in a more tangible way, but in the meantime, thank you for your love and concern. We have been blessed by each of you.

5 comments:

  1. Thank you for putting Paul on the phone the other night...Darin was able to say "goodbye" and that really meant a lot. He is a light...and will continue to be.

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  2. We have just received the news.. and are praying for you and your family as an aid to help you through these difficult times. We love you. mom and dad parker

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  3. We just wanted you to thank you for your blog posts. Mom, Julie, and I have been reading them over and over today. Thank you for allowing us to be a part of Paul's life, even up to the last day. In allowing us to see the process of dying, you and Paul have shown us how to live. Brian and I talked long into the night and we are forever changed because of your example. We love you and the boys so much and would do anything for you. We are not moving, so please count on us. You are in our prayers. Cathy and Brian

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  4. We love you all and will keep you in our prayers.

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