The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in, I miss my friend
See, this is why I don’t listen to country music: emotional overload is not compatible with the schedule of a full time student and mom. But Paul really liked Darryl Worley, and that song in particular. So you’re all invited to click on the link on the sidebar, listen to the song, and join me in a good cry.
How is it possible that it’s been a year already? And how is it possible that I’ve survived that year with only half a heart? Clearly, I’ve not done it alone. I am not only coping, but progressing for one reason: I have an incredible support system. First on the list: Jesus Christ. Were it not for my faith in him and his Atonement, I would not be functioning. Period. Next: my amazing family. I love you all. Now toss in an assortment of friends who fill various roles, ranging from impromptu caterer (thanks, Pizza Fairy) to confidante to intellectual sparring partner to therapist—at no charge, of course—and you can plainly see how I’ve managed to keep it together.
Paul would hate it if we spent this sad anniversary moping around, so we went skiing and snowboarding at Grand Targhee.
Hayden kept Tyler and Chloe company while Brandi was at work. When we got home Tyler, Brandi, and Chloe came for dinner, and we all sat around and talked and laughed while Chloe provided the entertainment. She's getting quite good at walking. Someone needs to tell her grandma to childproof her house and buy a baby gate. I hope you all spent the day thinking of Paul and the great memories you have of him.
Thanks for your post, DeLynn. I cried with you today, but feel so blessed. He is still so much a part of us and always will be. I cried with Mom, too and recalled fond memories with Julie. Even though the miles separate us, we can still all be close. I am so glad you have your boys, and those sweet girls, Brandi and Chloe. The Lord is watching over you, and I think Paul is too.
ReplyDeleteI was thinking of you today and hoping that you were doing well! I went to a funeral yesterday and at the cemetary I couldn't help but think of Paul and being at the cemetary a year ago for him. I looked back at my journal and read and cried as I remembered that day. You're an amazing person and I am so in awe of the strength that you have! I have enjoyed following your blog over these past few months and getting to know you and your family a little better through that! Thanks for letting me share that with you. You're truly a strength to all of the rest of us watching you! Like Cathy said, I'm sure Paul is never too far away!
ReplyDeleteI blame myself - you said listen to the song at your own risk and clicked and I cried. I thought about you guys a lot on Saturday, I'm glad you were up skiing and doing what you guys love to do.
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